December 30th, 2016

i used to think i was cursed...


that i was exclusively a loser magnet = a person who was could only attract happy-to-be-broken people or the assholes who were proud of the title...


then i realized: naw, there's just an overabundance of assholes (too afraid to fix their destructive shit) taking advantage of compassionate people...


i'm learning to temper my compassion with a little ruthless discernment...


I feel more powerful, more clear...more connected to my vulnerability & deep compassion i have for others by protecting that delicate light i've created after years of being broken & self-destructive in my own right....


that light is made up of a lot of hard-won healing...the result is a kind of vulnerability & compassion for others that is worth being ruthlessly protected...


i feel right in the world & in myself...