I Don't Do Reunions

I don't do reunions bec the people i love, i stay connected to ...the rest is abt showing up and playing the comparison game.  Am i where I "should be"? Well let me compare myself to my peers and find out.  The only way to go from there is down...Whereas connecting with people who were always family, from the moment I met them is joyful.  I'm not like them, my life doesn't look like theirs, but i love them and they love me just cause...we see each other...we accept each other and a year doesn't go by where we don't find a place and time to live, love, laugh and celebrate where we've been and the magic that we've become....those reunions have immense meaning for me...maybe, i've always felt like the oddball in most of life's social circumstances (pre-school, elem school, college, grad school, internships)...there was always this feeling of being out of sync w/others and the friction that caused...so the friends who found me and loved me anyway had/have immense meaning for me...they crossed the divide and became a salve to my loneliness...i treasure those connections and shy away from the connections that were never truly there to begin with...the ones i constantly struggled to make only for my efforts to be ignored or missed all together...youth ud abt trying to fit in, trying to earn love...being a grown-ass, happy woman is abt reveling in the connections that feel easy, that feel like the family i got to choose...